19.

NINE TEEN. So far its been so bad. I can't even explain how I feel. Oh boy. =/

Honestly

It's draining me. I can't breathe. This thing with you and me, it's driving me crazy. I see myself slowly losing it. Mentally. Emotionally. Constant disappointments, heartaches, frustrations, anticipations blah blah and etc. I feel like my heart is about to explode sometimes. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO I AM when im with you. All I do know is that I love being around you, and i'm sad when i'm not. As simple as that sound, why is it so complicated? =(

Sometimes I feel like its better off if I just stop seeing you all together..

The only time i like writing in here is to write about you.
Because in the back of my mind, I don't want to forget about anything that involves you.

But I'm so happy when I'm with you...
It's just sooooo hard to not love you.
Im trying so hard to just love you as a friend

but days like this is just hard.

maybe its just best that we aren't close..