It's been 3 years

It's been 3 years..
Nothing much has changed... unfortunately. I feel like things are worst.
I've hurt myself again.. something I haven't done in a very long time.
I feel numb, sad, confused and I can't seem to find a way to stop or how to even help myself.

I dont really know what to do.

I've lost alot of friends
I'm losing my relationship with my sister...
I feel so alone.

I'm not exactly sure what to do.
I feel like my depression is getting worst.. and know one even knows it.